Batik, a new perspective

I have an unending crush toward batik lately. This leads to unhealthy dose of daily shopping as predicted.

Pat Metheny Show at Java jazz festival 2012

Semi itu belum selingkuh lho!

Suatu siang di mal langganan, empat sekawan lahap menyantap makan siang. Satu di antaranya adalah si bengal Pecun yang beberapa kali sempat menjadi subjek cerita blog ini. Dan siang itu bukan pengecualian.

Sarah (S) : "Cun, dua bulan jadi janda lo nggak kesepian?"

Pecun (P) : "Jiahh.. hahahayy. Kesepianlah Mbak. Lo tau sendiri gue. Gak tahan dingin. Tapi itu cerita kemareeennn"

Ketiga sahabatnya langsung tersedak. "Maksud looo?"

P : "hehe.. gak liat nih muka gue udah berseri-seri kembali?"

Audrey (A) : Udah dapet, ama sapa lo?

P : "ama Galang. Mantan pacar gue dulu itu. Ini pertama kali lho gw selingkuh ama dia"

S : "beuhh.. serius lo? Bukannya lo dulu sempet beberapa kali check in ama dia? Gak selingkuh gimana?

P : "dulu itu cuma grepek-grepek doang. Gak sampe ML. Semi lah, semi. Semi itu belum selingkuh lho"

Astajimmmm.. Udah diazab jadi janda aja lo masih bengal gini ya. Dari mana ceritanya grepek-grepek ama laki orang itu bukan selingkuh.

 

 

 

 

A late night memo to God

God, it's me again. Anty. Who pray to you for a second chance just an hour ago before I sleep. Remember? errr.. The one who always tap the pillow and whisper a name 3 times before turn it backside and say a pray? Have a clue?
Tonight I come again, good Lord. Not with a new wish but a gratefull expression. For you always letting me have all I wish. Even sometime I ignore you, hating you so much for giving me hard time, refuse to learn of how beautiful your way is and doing all the things a sinner do. And a sinner indeed I am. But you never turn me down. You always believe in me and lift me in your hand. God.. Thank you for every single thing you've put in my path. All the hardship, the bitterness and the upside down of my life. For the hard time, now I can really value my leisure time. For the bitterness, I can taste the true sweetness of life. For the dark, I can see all the colours imaginable.
God, still busy, ehh? I'll make it short then. Thank you, The Almighty. And one last thing before I put my handheld back on its charging dock, please give all this bliss you've given me to those whose in need too. shine them with your light so they can see your path. Make their heart strong and believe in Your grace. Don't let us leave You. Ahh.. Good Lord, you know I'm not good with word. So, that's for now. Thank you and bye..
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What Will It Take

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These days, flyin' off an empty page
Lonely.. forever something in our way
But deep in my soul, your light, is all that I'm prayin' for
Salvation is in your eyes, but not for me

What will it take to make you want me?
What will it take to make you mine?
What will it take to make you love me for all time?

It's funny, how nothing ever stays the same
Helpless.. never knowin' who's to blame
There once was a time when my love was somethin' worth fightin' for
And now it's all I can do to remind you, of what could be

Baby I'd cross the darkest valley, I would ford the river wide
If that's what it takes, to make you love me for all time
But I've been chasin' you too long...to think you'd rather I were gone
But I will wait for you forever. Yes, I will..
You know it's true, I'll wait until you come around

What will it take?

The Rembrandts

is this the end?

Here I am sitting quitely on my seat in my journey visiting Budhe in RSCM. The sun dim light leaving golden arrays of light reflected on the glass wall of Jakarta's skycrappers.
Here I am crying quitely, for I'm on the edge of this road. The long road I've taken you since that Friday three years ago. Fear, it is what I'm feeling the most. My nerve gone cold I can't think of anything else. But one thing I know.. I've fought well. I'm prooving myself for not being a coward. Nor I'm a liar. I've fought well.. It is time to surrender. Is this the end, Good Lord? Is this the end? Sent from my BlackBerry® smartphone from Sinyal Bagus XL, Nyambung Teruuusss...!

17 Agustus 2011, a day of mine

Yesterday's August 17th, 2011. A public holiday. And as a mere holiday I woke up so late, the sunlight almost burning my eyes when I opened the window.

I expected nothing on that day. What would you expected to be happen on a holiday like that? It's just a common independence day that would end up me watching over the ceremony on TV. Boring. Like always. So I started doing the houseworks. And one by one the magic happenned.
My friend Dibya Bernie texted me, 'Air Asia got a promotion to India'. What the heck! I've been longing to that country for so long but due to the high price ticket I have to keep my wanderlust deep inside. And after a brief discussion with my boyfriend so here they are two tickets KL - Delhi and return. With my BF said, 'I'll make it 3 months instalment' it is indeed a independence gift for me. Thank you @sukeren and @DibyaBernie.

Later on I was heading to Jakarta to pick up the air con I bought from my best friend garage sale. She's on a process of a divorce with current husband so she needs to clean up all the stuff from their rent house before getting back to her parents in Roxy. First I wasn't so sure about the AC condition n power supply. But here it is.. An aircon in nice condition. It has no latest technology but the feature and power supply suit my need. Such value for money indeed. I'm glad. Thank you, Ri'I.

The magic still works in such a speed when suddenly we found out through a phone call to Ri'i's husband made by one of her friend that he left her for another woman. She tried to be strong but still, the teardrops running out of her eyes. She cried. And my eyes opened. A marriage is a commitment. And it takes a real good deed from within to keep a commitment works because there are so many temptations in this world. Beauty of a woman, the wisdom of a man, power, money, sex even the need for an adrenaline rush adventure.. Name it.

My heart aching, and I'm chilling. Can we make this marriage works? Can I make it? I have no guarantee. I know my heart would break apart if one day he'll cheat on me. And I'm afraid. So afraid to be hurt. But I want to live my life with him. Should I drop this opportunities to work another level of life adventure because of a fear? But isn't it better to fail after trying the best than do nothing and regret it?

I saw my man packing the aircon n put it into cab. We said goodbye to my dearest friend and went home. I already got the answer.

It's August 17, 2011.. a day worth remembering.